more to come

Finally I have the time to blog. DONE with my MUET examination and mid-term. And now waiting for results. Got back PA and PP, econs and history are still under process. Overall, frankly, I am satisfied with my results except PA. Expected much really. Not to say I am really sad of it because I did my best shot, I've done my BEST. As for PP, I studied very hard, memorizing days and nights, burned midnight oil and LUCKILY it pays off =D happy with it.

There will be NO HOLIDAYS FOR ME !! STUDIES MUST BE MY TOP PRIORITY !!

IN TOTAL SPEECHLESS !
just do what you want....

preparation

IS 5.11 am now.... and I'm still working on my WORLD HISTORY ~~~~

BEST OF LUCK !!!

ciaoz.... continue studies..... wink* =D

midterm

great!! time flies ! and I do not have enough time to study =X it is just like.... a never-enough-task for me to achieve. No matter how much I studied, still feel that it is NOT ENOUGH...... haihz

well, having midterm this very THURSDAY (13/05)!!!!!

IS TIME TO .............. =X

BEST OF LUCK TO TMN SEA FORM SIXES !!! DO GIVE YOUR BEST SHOT ! =D

DONE, MUET !

FINALLY DONE with my muet examination. We tested on paper2 today - Speaking. Personally, I think my group did a GREAT job in task A and B. Nigel, you rock!!! LOL. but how can you 'shit' in front of the examiners? =O Overall, all of us(6AB) have done a great job ! PN V should be proud of us =D haha!

NOW have to focus on mid-term. Study Smart people !

MUET trial + friendship

My MUET trial paper finally over and I'm satisfied with my result except paper 3 (reading). Bidaras, you guys should know why I'm sure =X

Anyways, I'm proud to be part of Bidara and thank you for supporting me all the way =D Glad to have you guys as my friends and this is where I can really see the friendship. Credits go to Charlie Tango, Alpha Lima, Tango Lima Lima, Kilo Tango, November, Bravo, Kilo Whiskey, Yankee Charlie......... and not forgetting my another two SAKAI friends !!!! ~~~

ALL I KNOW IS A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED

thank you friends..... LOVE you all ~~~~ wink*

endless

AGAIN.... my tears fell off. I promised not to cry for you anymore but I failed to do so!

more to go

Sat for MUET paper 3 and 4 today. Nearly screwed up in paper4, but luckily managed to "save" it =D there are more more more tests and exams coming up......

I just relized I have a lot more to study..... haihz =X

GOD BLESS

packed week

My weeks are getting more and more busy, more and more hectic. STRESS is all over, surrounding me. Teachers keep reminding us to STUDY STUDY and STUDY, nothing else! Just finished my March monthly test. This is only a small test and yet I already screwed up. Don't know how am I going to handle the actual exam - STPM. Honestly, during the one week of school holiday, that was really the time that I really sit down and STUDY! And it was also my first time to really tried very very hard to study PP and memorized it... somehow, I DID IT =D i learn to "accept" PP because initially I hated it very much. My this whole week already packed. Monday to Wednesday - test, Thursday - kuiz kerjaya, Friday to Sunday - camp muafakat.

NEED TIME TO HAVE A TIGHT SLEEP BADLY =X

annual camp

Went to RC annual camp last weekend in school. To all camp committee, you guys did a great job and hope you all really learned something that can bring this society to a higher level. In all honestly, the camp was a success!! In the camp, I met back my secondary friends. After 2 years plus, finally we can get together sit down and chat. Spent a meaningful night together =D

*SOME MEMORIES NEVER FADE, SOME FEELINGS NEVER CHANGE*

misund

We can simply misunderstand people in just not even a minute but WHY are we taking ages to understand something nor someone? If only you are in my shoes, you will know what I mean.

" Lord Jesus, please continue to bless and empower me. Lighten up my daily life, bring me out from this current situation. Grant me strength and courage to accept all the awful truth outside. Heavenly father, I pray that you continue to bless and protect me from sorrows. Pour out your blessing and love on all of my days. In Jesus name, amen. "

hectic week

It is a hectic week for me. I have so much to do for the week yet I have not enough time. My timetable is fully packed and I can't help it. ALL THINGS are waiting for me to settle, but I don't know how am I going to handle it. Today already Wednesday, tomorrow is Thursday then Friday, Saturday and Sunday - camp.... A week gone just like that. Every day I wonder, did I do anything meaningful in my daily life? I doubt that. I don't know why people keep expecting more from me. Initially it is a motivation for me to go further but eventually it pressured me indirectly. I know my limit and I am soon gonna hit my limit.

At times things can not put it in word. It happens just like that, is not within our control. I might look like a cheerful girl but deep down inside I don't think I am. I hided everything from my parents, teachers, friends...... No point telling because I know there is NO ONE out there can help except me myself. I gave myself a try, but I failed. Nothing can be done and I chose to leave it aside, don't want to bother anymore.

Frankly, I dislike holidays especially school holidays. My to do list for this coming school hols is two pages. Tests and exams that really matter me right now. After the march holiday, there are two tests I'm gonna sit for, one is Econs, another one is PP (business) which I HATE THE MOST. Basically I have no interest in it, not at all and it is kinda...... "nothing to do with me". I wouldn't use the word force, but fact is PP is a compulsory subject for us in this school. I have no choice but to study for its sake. To be honest, I study PP is just for the test and exam.

I have my presentations after the hols, tests of course, R&D proposal to be submitted, class page to be done, camp to be organized, tons and tons of studies..... which is the most most important task during the hols and not forgetting preparation for MUET examination. I AM NOT GONNA SIT FOR IT FOR THE SECOND TIME which is on Sep. It is a waste of time and money to do so.

THERE ARE SO MUCH TO DO BUT SO LITTLE TIME

study time!

*** PREPARING FOR MID-YEAR ***

you raise me up

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be.


I know you came back, sixth sense tells me so. Want to prove whether it accurates, drove all the way to your house, turned in the junction already saw your car........

I SPEECHLESS

three things in life

I got this from church... is very meaningful though

3 THINGS IN LIFE

3 things in life that once gone, never come back:

• TIME
• WORDS
• OPPORTUNITY

3 things in life that one should always has:

• HOPE
• PEACE
• HONESTY

3 things in life that are most valuable:

• LOVE
• FRIENDS
• SELF-CONFIDENCE

3 things in life that are never certain:

• SUCCESS
• DREAMS
• FORTUNE

3 things in life that make a good person:

• SINCERITY
• HARD WORK
• COMPASSION

3 things in life that can destroy a person:

• PRIDE
• GREED
• ANGER

3 things in life that are truly constant:

• "FATHER"
• "SON"
• "HOLY SPIRIT"

happy CNY

HAPPY 2 in 1 PEOPLE !!!!

**

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

+

HAPPY VALENTINE

**

stronger

I GONNA BE EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE!!

sucks

I can't bring myself to sleep and so blogging here.
I just don't understand why?! Why sometimes things happened which is nothing to do with me but yet I HAVE TO FACE THE CONSEQUENCES??! WHY?!? This is SO UNFAIR to me! Just like my car. Parents didn't scold me on that but keep saying never mind. Is it really doesn't matter to them?? BUT I MIND! I VERY MIND! A nice car after letting me drive dented here and there. Why don't they scold me?? It will makes me feel more comfortable rather than now I keep blaming myself. All said it wasn't not my fault, but I tell you, IT IS MY FAULT, I have to be responsible for the car I'm driving. Can you all just scold me?? Is not worthy to treat me so good. Having this feeling is SUCKs! SUCKs TO THE MAX !!!

Why am I keep facing problems these few days? I know, life without trouble isn't life. But life full of troubles is also not a life, so can anyone there tell me, WHAT IS LIFE ABOUT? Is just like a never ending for me, every day sure something bad will happen to me. Why is it must be me? What have I done until God punish me in this way? Where is your justice Lord? Aren't you should punish those wicked people? But why?? I'm sorry for blaming.

Let me pour everything out here. I no longer can keep to myself. I also have my own limits and this is way enough for me! Yes, I know I have to face the reality outside, have to face it myself, but I am seriously lack of confidence in facing the outside world even my tomorrows. I've TOTALLY LOST my purpose in life. Why after all hardship, I still wouldn't get what I want? All I know is no hardship, no victory. UNFORTUNATELY, it DOESN'T WORKS on me. So what for I still pushing myself to achieve it? Shouldn't I just lay back and relax?

YES! I strongly agree with you, max. It is 50-50 to you, and it's same goes to me. This is NOT the first time for you treating me like this. I experienced it before! So shouldn't be a problem for me to get on with my life.

anymore = forever = hopeless

• Is it really when there's a will, there's a way?

BULL SHIT!! I CAN ASSURE THAT

• Just by wishing and hoping, things will come into our ways?

STOP DREAMING !

weird feeling

I'm having a very weird feeling NOW, at this particular point. I don't feel like going any further into this. I don't actually need it in life now. Although I do really missed it but what is over just let it be. There's no way of turning back, no longer having the same thoughts and feelings, most important is I no longer have to courage to trust it will happen once again. To tell the truth, I'm really hoping but fact is fact, we have and need to face it even if we choose not to.

NO MORE TURNING BACK

why I just CAN'T get what I want????

good beginning

It is so HAPPENING for today =D Early morning wake up knowing today gonna be a great day ahead! And true enough. I don't know since when I found it is more easy for me to let go, to give up rather than keep wanting it to happen, forcing it to happen. Things won't work out if only me the one who keep hoping it to really come true without considering other factors. I neglected a lot for this to happen, not regret just a bit "sayang". THINGS WORK WHEN I LEAST EXPECT! =)) I NEED TO BE BACK MYSELF

hoping

Went to duty last night at Puchong there. It was actually an event organized by acts church, a sports event. So happy after the duty, I FINALLY FOUND BACK THE FEELING THAT I USED TO HAD LAST TIME together with them. This is awesome for me!!! Nothing much, just two major cases, suspect fracture on the elbow and ankle. So we bandaged and called them to pay a visit to the hospital. It was a great day although I burned out =)

A new week has begin, firstly..... I want to have a goof luck. Hoping everything will goes on smoothly.

It has been a week ever since...........

School Replacement

Day by day, I don't know whether my decision is correct? I don't know is it the time for me? I don't know should I take a step further or just stay put here, doing nothing to solve "this" problem? Currently my life is in a mess, my studies, my car........ All things suddenly just pop out like that without me knowing it. Once again, I'm lost! I do not know what is next coming for me, what is gonna happen and how "it" gonna work out. Why every time after a decision has been made, for sure I will regret on it? Why can't I just put it aside and doing zero reconsideration? If only I can do that, I'm not the steph that you know. I am really trying very very hard to be a better person, to be more realistic and to be more MATURE.

Today I had a school replacement for the coming cyn hols. Only 4 turned up, good enough for us to catch a movie in the APD room. Watched "17 again". There were many scenes that touched my heart, so sweet~

hope my black luck will come to an END!!!

Tough Week

Long time didn't blog... Well.. THIS WEEK IS THE WORST AND BLACKEST WEEK ever in my whole entire life!!! So many things happened to me and this is only the second month of the year 2010. I do learnt a lot as well lost a lot too. I lost thing that I beloved the most but I do gained a lot of friendships! This is exactly what pn tan has told me, when god takes one away, he will gives 9 in return!

Well, CYN coming, new year, new life, new hope! Really hope EVERYTHING will goes on smoothly and pls pls pls..... no more accidents for me!

A 5 years deal, will it comes true? I let go to god. I no longer have anything to say, anything to do either. Just let the time prove it, prove I'm wrong and you are RIGHT. Take care. Don't get messed anymore