NASIONAL SERVICE CURRENTLY

b4 going ns

Well, now is 12.30am, I still have exactly 8 more hours and I'll be going NS. I repack all my stuff, and now my bag is soooo HEAVY!

This morning reached school only I met Pn Yee. She's so nice, said good luck to me for my NS. LoL. Actually I planned to pay school fee, but since my form teacher MC, so too bad larh.... Wait until I've done my ns first. Today didn't study much except for PA and Maths S. So the rest of the time we played in class, talked non sense, laughed like nobody's business....... WHO CARES? NO ONE! lol. I got touched by my this male friend, he sang a song for me...... WAHAHA! X)

VERY THANK YOU TO MY CLASSMATES, they actually did a farewell for me.... =) Oooo, imagine, how sweet it is? ;D THANKS A MILLION!

I got an interview right after school and it was satisfied. Proud of myself xD After that I played badminton at taman megah court with classmates again. It's actually part of the farewell since I love badminton like crazy. Yeah! We played with our own unique styles. Sat and play, all right-handed but played with left hands, golf style, tennis style......... FUN!

My phone rang the whole night, calls and messages from all friends and extended family members wishing me good luck and take care.... SO TOUCHED~ msn also

At night, guess what? Friends even came and visit me....... not one, not two, but nine!!!! All my close friends. WOW!!! THANKS larh just, besides thanks, I don't know what to say...... Appreciate it very much!

Wait! I haven't wish Joey and Yng Hui happy 18th bday! Although I can't celebrate with you guys, but I wish you two have a blessed and happy bday! F6 no longer like F5, must study hard and smart k cause later when I come back you guys have to teach me.... every subjects, don't care! so ya.... STUDY!! STUDY FOR FUTURE!!! ;D

I WILL DEFINITELY TAKE CARE...... NS, HERE I COME~~~!!! YAHoooO!

KEM HUTAN REKREASI AIR KEROH, MELAKA

I can't connect to the internet since last monday. Well, I can definitely conclu that last week was a tough week. I hurt myself don't know for how many times, so boring that I couldn't want to wake up in the morning until I felt hungry then only I wake up and have my brunch. Let's start by monday.

Monday, I woke up doing nothing and yet I got fever and sore throat. I don't feel like eating medicines cause basically I don't know how to shollaw pills. My mom force me to. I felt very geli when the pills stopped at my throat and made me felt like want to vomit. DAMN !!! At night dad wanted to bring me to visit doctor and I agreed that I'll be going but at the very last minute, I changed my mind..... stay at home and study better. STUPID HAZE!

Tuesday, I woke up with a slight fever. As usual I'll be doing nothing besides study. In the afternoon, I called up TM Net saying I can't connect myself to the internet. I tell you, is just so freaking hard to get through them! So busy the line. Finally got through, then they tought me how to overcome this problem. At first click

start -> all programs -> accessories -> command prompt -> right click -> run as -> administrator -> ....................

this is only one of the method. Still have the second and third method. Cause my comp is in my room, not beside the house phone, so I've to run in and out, click the whichever buttons and run back out to the living room and " hello, yes, I clicked that button edi, what's next? " It wasn't a one shot thingy and it took me around 20 minutes to settle and at last guess what they said.

" Sorry stephanie, is our internet service currently BREAKS DOWN. It's nothing to do with your account settings, password and your user ID. "
" Why don't you say earlier? "
" I'm sorry, very sorry."
" Is ok, as long there's nothing to do with me account. So when can I connect to the internet back? "
" We are now working on it, maybe you and try at night? "
" Sure, thanks then. "
" Sorry for any inconvenience caused and thanks for calling TM Net customer service. "

Geram.... Geram.....!!!

Wednesday, I knocked right my toe and cut my right ulna..... crazy! My toe I got internal bleeding and ulna external bleeding larh of course. Malang.... I packed my stuff ready to go to NS. At first I brought a lot of clothes and it's way too heavy for me to carry, thus, I poured out everything and pack again and now there's a lot of spaces left. WAHAHA! x) yahooo~

Thursday, I played computer games the whole day as in the all afternoon and night ;D I threw out after having dinner out of a sudden. Guess ate too full, over the limit. LoL

Friday. Hmm.... OK, I woke up at 12.30pm, after having brunch, watched tv awhile and prepared to go play badminton. Didn't play for quite some time. Reached there only..... OMG!!! It's just like a reunion gathering for us (the jasminez). Some that I never been seeing them after SPM were there playing with me, some that I've lost contacts with were there...... Sooooo long didn't see them but they still looked the same as high school time with only coloured hair. Whoa! I MISSED HIGH SCHOOL! What's next? second round of course! We drove to a park which located at the housing area, tmn mayang for basketball. Yea, second round basketball. We played basketball with our OWE way of playing. Girls and guys mixed. So we played with guys and once we got the ball, the guys will automatically gave way to us....... Guys don't dare to snag the ball from us and we did snag from them. And whenever they want to pass the ball to us, they used the bowl method which is roll to us as we couldn't get the ball when they used the basketball method. We screamed and played like no body's business and my team this girl friend, once she got the ball only, " GO AWAY GO AWAY!! THIS IS MY BALL!! " and all the guys just stood aside and watched her how she shoots and scores! Sooo gentlemen ;) This is just "US" when we were a team and play together. Know what's our third round? haha! of course go yum cha larh. yea, and so we drove to ming tian and have some drinks. In between we chatted a lot and this shown how much we care of each other =) talk and talk and they decided to catch a movie or sing-k later on after bathing and dinner. Since we were so busy in previous months, after all everyone agreed with it and by the time already 7pm so rushed back and met at cineleisure at 8.30 shape. Malaysian timing, no choice, we gathered there at 9.15 and luckily we were just in time for the movie "blood, the last vampire". We chose this movie cause everyone wants to get shock and loves watching horror movie. This guy friend, don't know what happened to him, kept laughing throughout the movie and his laughing virus spread to us and we started laughing there.... MY GOODNESS!!!! We sat quiet front and no one in front of us. COOL xP This should be a horror movie and we don't see any scary part or interesting part neither. The blood and the way the actress kills those vampires just too fake. After the movie only we start complaining, one of them even bored until in the middle of the movie, took out his phone and play pokemon game. -.-

Everything was fine and just until the minute I received "THAT" msg from a friend. Can say a bit disappointing and I don't feel like replying...... For me, I see no point argue for that so I shall just let it be. But isn't just the way I want it to be ? Ahh.... Stop thinking, stephanie..... you will be fine....

I still remember, HAPPY 21TH BIRTHDAY HUEY LYNN!!! MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND BE WITH YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Today school reopen, feeling? hmm.... ok larh, but still very boring. Used up 5 tissues just to clean and wipe my desk and chair, cause basically they were filled with dusts due to 2 weeks of holidays.

" you should stay and study science, why want to change? "

" Ooo, no no no! I'll suffer if I study science. "

" Let me help you to suffer. "

" .... "

I MET A STRANGER!!!~

Idislikewhenpeopletryingtodigthingsbackoutandtalk. Justletitbelarh, overisover. Stopdiscussingonthismatteranymorecanornot ?

LET me go NS peacefully and happily. THS a million

I'M DONE WITH THIS ;D

Day by day... tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow... I admit I was worried about my NS, I dunno how's the place gonna be like, how will people act in there, how this how there.... Is a bit scary though. But another part of me feeling very excited, very lucky cause can fulfill my 3months there. Ahhh.... Fickle minded. To be honest, I'm not that worry about my academic, cause basically all subjects that I've taken more to memorizing, so is fine for me. The thing that I worried the most is XXXXXXX. I just hope everything will go smoothly in these 3 months. GOD BLESS.

Tuesday and Thursday night I went for a small shop, used up almost RM 140 in two days to get all stuff ready. As for Wednesday night, I went to my aunt's place and visited my grandparents. My gong gong slimmed down a lot a lot!! So heart pain when I saw him. Hiahzz ;(

I have no mood to study. According to my timetable, I should had finished 5 chapters of PA this week. But seems that I couldn't make it, I only get to studied until chapter 4. Friends all enjoying outside, of course larh, they are not going to NS. Shit!! I'll be studying alone there, loneliness surrounding me.... T_T can I bring my pillow along with me to NS? Feel like hugging something........ ~

I HAVE MY whole ENTIRE RIGHT TO DO THAT !

gemuruh

Went to clinic to do full body check up for NS. There were 4 rooms for me to do different different types of checkups. Firstly I tested on my eyes' sight, then proceeded to the next room which is urine test. Okay. everything normal. Third was checking of height, weight and pressure. Lastly, full body check up, lying on a bed which had blood stain. NOT hygiene AT ALL! The doctor said I high blood pressure, need to go back and recheck after my NS. Is kinda serious! LOL. I'm not to say prejudice or what, just that I really dislike government clinics and hospitals. If you go through what I've been through, you will know why....... hmm, yea =)

Exactly 2 more weeks and i shall attend my NS. Looking forward to it. Although I will miss a lot of stuff.... but never mind. I only can go NS once in my whole entire life,isn't it? People said can differ, yes, i know, can differ, but how sure are you they will call you back for it? Most probably they won't. Most of us want to differ is because we don't want to go for it, BUT my case is different. I WANT TO GO FOR NS, I'M WILLING TO GO AND I'LL GO NO MATTER WHAT OR HOW! That's ME!!!

* Bila bertalu, rentak dikalbu,

Hasrat yang tersirat semakin kuburu,

Bila bergema, laungan gempita,

Harapan beryala, nadiku berganda ~

** Gemuruh jiwa, semangat membara,

Dari puncak hingga ke angkasa,

Berkalungkah bintang berkerlipan,

Menerlah jauh dari yang biasa ~

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Segalanya pasti kau terbukti nanti ~~~~~~

last

That will be the LAST NIGHT

NS faster!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least i can escape for a while..............................

and put an end for IT

I'm sorry that i feel I'm sorry

I'm sorry that I'm the creator and maker of all troubles and problems

I'm sorry that I've failed you

I'm sorry that i don't know when to keep my mouth shut

i really didn't mean to imply anything. I'm sorry that I've made yr life even hectic. sincerely apologize but i know things will still stay the same. I'm capable of making things worst. I cant help up anything, not a single dot, not even a easy task but i can wrack things up side down in just less than a second. I really dunno that this will caused you to make that decision. i know what shall i do next. SHUT MY MOUTH !

disaster

!! DISASTER !!

Went for disaster duty at section 14, as you know half of the building collapsed. I'm sorry for those who sacrificed in the disaster. I'm sure none of us want this to happen, but when the time comes, it is not within our control. According to what I heard, this was the first building collapsed case in M'sia. There was a case happened in year 1993, almost similar to this, but the one was actually landslide.

I received the call on Friday evening, 6.36 pm from boss, was shocked hearing that there's this building collapsed at section 14 next to digital mall..... Called up wk, edwin and yc. All also on the way...... ok..... GO GO GO !!! change to uniform cause was wearing pyjamas at that time x) didn't even have my dinner and rushed to there straight. Reached there ten minutes before 8. Many already there, SMART Team, Bomba, Police, RC, St. John, Rela, MPPJ. We were given some briefing on what's going on, what we should do and stuff by Dr. Risyah (doctor commandant of the disaster from PPUM).

DUTY DUTY DUTY~ Tired of course.

Went to Genting on Sunday evening at 4pm, reached home at 4am (Monday morning) LoL

twinkle twinkle little stars, how I wonder what you are~~~~