weird feeling

I'm having a very weird feeling NOW, at this particular point. I don't feel like going any further into this. I don't actually need it in life now. Although I do really missed it but what is over just let it be. There's no way of turning back, no longer having the same thoughts and feelings, most important is I no longer have to courage to trust it will happen once again. To tell the truth, I'm really hoping but fact is fact, we have and need to face it even if we choose not to.

NO MORE TURNING BACK

why I just CAN'T get what I want????