takes time

takes time

SLOW AND STEADY!!! ;)

48/50

48/50


Woke up early in the morning prepared myself to sit for the undang test. Last minute only get to study which is last night. Cause basically I was busy with VAD stuff - coming camp. Campsite also haven't settle, food everything. Letters also, we have to send out all letters to PPD 5 weeks before the camp. A bit rush cause we lack of time. Time is so precious!!!!! Start to feel the pressure.
Back to the story. The instructor came at 7.00 a.m. to pick me up. Once he reaches my house, his kancil only left the one and only space for me to sit and of course I can fit in. LOL =) 5 of us plus instructor in the car. This world is really very small, I met Yew Pang (VAD member) inside the kancil. So the jodoh. We ended dicussing about the camp, food, ingredient, campsite........etc inside the car. Now VAD, PBSM seemed part of my life, can't really let go. Chat chat chat and we finally reached. 4 of us, 2 will be taking undang test and the other 2 will be on the road. I'm taking undang and this guy named John also same as me where Yew Pang and the other girl on the road. Cause it was too early for us to sit for the undang test, so the instructor dropped 4 of us to asia jaya there, place where get your P license, yea, there! Me, Yew Pang and John sat together and had a small chat there. Nice to meet you, John. =D Around 8 a.m., the instructor fetch both of us to sit for our undang test. We were the first to reach. Took our test at 8.35 a.m. We were given 45 minutes to answer 50 questions. In 25 minutes time I'm done, but since still have time, I went through once more. Wasn't that nervous when I click on ' TAMAT SESI ', to tell the truth, I'm confident with it. And the result appreared straight on the screen, I scored 48/50. =D so happy, don't have to waste time and money to resit for the test since I passed. Went out of the "examination hall" to collect my result sheet. I called up my parents tell them about this good news. Actually I don't wanted to call him cause that time was 9.15 a.m. and I knew he's rushing to work or maybe on the way driving to work. Don't know why I still call him. A bit disappointed honestly, he sounded very busy, rushing for something. But I can surely understand, didn't blame him on that. Unfortunately John failed, sorry for that, he had to retake. He kept saying : " Oh No, I lose to a computer!!! OH NO!!! " The tune that he used, make me laugh, really xP
Reached home bathe, online to check for campsites, chatted with him. And he apologized for this morning call besides also congrats me for passing ;) Had a tight nap after that from 1p.m. to 7p.m. so freaking tired. Just want to sleep and dream. LOL =.=* yea.
Now waiting for my amali which is gonna be on this thursday then still have to wait for around 10 days to get L and.......... can on the road already!!!!! YAHOOO~ I called the instructor to arrange for me, as fast as possible. I need my P license VERY much! >.<

life

life process

I don't know what the hell going on with me, feel so sick for the past few weeks! =X Visited doctor yesterday, as usual, got lectured from him, this, that, this, that....... Ahhhh, you think I volunteering to get sick??! Don't be silly. Often headache, dizzy, black out, stomach not feeling well.......... All these really can kill me. No joke. Actually I had a very bad feeling where I think I'm gonna die soon. Somehow this feeling just "pop" up and is so strong. Ya, still have a lot a lot of things I haven't get to achieve, my career, own car and house, my own family.........etc. But 'life' this thing, we can't control, is all fully based on GOD, is in his hand. When is time, is time. We have to accept it and start a new life, whether in heaven or in hell. No idea. It's scary, totally!!!
So guys, if you don't see me for a long time, I didn't pick up your calls, didn't reply your messages or you can't get me, please forgive me for leaving the world in a sudden without saying a bye.

BEST WISHES TO YOU GUYS OUT THERE. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

again

again?!

Ahhhh.....! Why am I feeling jealous because of that? I know I shouldn't and yet I can't help it. I tried to hide, but it's still doesn't works. All of a sudden this happened again. What is this man?! seriously. I just........ I just........ Tell me, just tell me, why??!? So pathetic T_T GOSH!!!!! Since when again??!? I had no idea. Basically I'm just following my intuitions, and this's what I ended up with. Feeling so helpless, don't know what to do, what's next?????? The pain is personal and it's deep. The soul is searching for meaning. You have the potential within you.

hopefully GOD will answer my prayer

hopefully hopefully and hopefully.... we.......

GOD BLESS ME

hiahz

hiahz

All these questions keep turning and burning and churning inside me. I need to know these answers, I need to find my way. Can't tell what's waiting, still I need to go ~~~

make your days brighter

make your days brighter

accept what you must,
and change what you can.
think before you act
and not regret any moment
of carelessness.
appreciate what you have
and the wonderful person you are.
enjoy the simple pleasure of life:
in nature and in people.
forgive mistakes and forget the past.
learn and discover new experiences
and take life as an adventure.
dream and plan for your future....
go for what you want !!

we are the best !

we are the best!

VAD PETALING

ADA MUTU, ADA GAYA !

WE ARE STILL THE BEST, THE TOP !! NO ONE CAN BEAT US !!

I really don't get it. I thought we did our best and we can win. Ya, we really tried our best, we gave the best shot. But the mark was so........ just doesn't make any sense to me, totally unreasonable.......... I speechless, real speechless. When we returned to MC house, we acted normal, especially FX. I'm sure everyone is disappointed, was so unhappy and dissatisfied with the result but yet hiding the feeling deep down in heart. But is OK to lose, the most important thing is we got to stand up and work as a team. At least we get to experienced things that we never know before this, hang out as the team, get to know each other. Played cards and mahjong together. That's more worthy than winning right? Come on! We've still got a camp to run, it's another experience, let's make it the best and memorable one kay!!! The whole committee should be mentally and physically strong!

new phone

new phone!

NEW PHONE

NOKIA 7310 SUPERNOVA PINK IN COLOR =D

realities

realities

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you, so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you trying to know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.


REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

meaningful 09'

meaningful 09'

Handled a case early in the morning in church. One of my church member twisted her ankle. I applied R- I- C- E method. Went to chapter for training competition. I gained back the confident which I had totally lost ever since that day wednesday meeting~~ =) what a relief to me. I joined RC since standard 4 until now, 7 years plus. I still remember why I choose to join RC. The main reason was at that time, my ambition is to be a nurse. I got motivation from my mom too cause she used to be a nurse. And now, I joined VAD just to help people outside who really really needs help, know how to appreciate us and respect us.

FIRST AIDER !!

awesome !

awesome !

Well, met an accident today and this is my very FIRST accident case ever in my life !!!! together with two seniors. It's just a small case basically, motorcycle case. When to University of Notthingham. It was really really big and nice, 5star uni. The objective we went there is to give first aid course. Yea. "Makeup" on the casualties, it was totally.....(speechless)..... I SALUTE YOU !!

REMINDERS :

1. He treats you good is not because he likes you, it's just the way he is.
2. Surrender to the fact that life isn't fair.
3. Seek first to understand.
4. Choose being kind over being right.
5. Remember that everything has God's fingerprints on it.
6. Search for the grain of truth in other opinions.
7. Wherever you go, there are you.
8. Be grateful when you're feeling good and be graceful when you're feeling bad.
9. Fill your life with love.
10. Power of own thoughts.

money again

money again

Very tired, shopped the whole day. Bought some stuff- tops, ear rings and makeup remover. I bought a top for koko, as a reward for him since he studied so hard for stpm. yea, what a good sister, I know ;) as for you, I don't know larh, I just follow my intuition and final decision has been made. YEAH!!!! you had one too !! =D

CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW ~~~~ yahooooooo!

7.30 a.m.

KEM PASUKAN BANTUAN SUKARELA 2009

KEM PASUKAN BANTUAN SUKARELA 2009

PBS camp 2009 DAY 1

My first day of camp -- Azizul's. Okay, lets start from...... okay~ first of all, I would like to thank Benjamin for fetching us there all the way and paid twice for tolls =D Although we drove into the wrong way and it was totally scary, cause the road looked very very "kampung", holes here and there, everywhere, can't even see a single tar, honestly. But thank God, we finally reached-- Camp Tekali, Hulu Langat. We were on time as in like 3.00p.m. register, 2.59p.m. we reached. Yea =) That time it was drizzling and just only the first day of camp, of cause will feel potong steam, right? Exactly! But luckily the rain stopped after 20 minutes. So happy =D okay, we waited for others to get registered and it took a long time. Never mind, as a first aider, must be patient. LOL x)

At the beginning, we divided into 10 teams, but somehow something went wrong some way, thus we divided into 8 teams. Each team consists of 12-13 members. And guess what, my team consists of 10 Malays, 1 Indian and 1 Chinese, which is ME! Proud of it. ;) There again, we divided into another 8 groups. Each group consists of 15-17 members-- "dome mates". After settle down everything, we were called to gathered at the assembly hall to watch so-called "BSM History" video. Know what, it was a cartoon history. Cute-nya~ Followed by introducing of camp committee. Coming up next was speech from Azizul, quite interesting, laughed all long. Yea. After that we sang social songs and played games. And that really made me sweat (physically) like hell, really, no joke. Learnt new claps- Tepuk Menyampah, Tepuk tidah apa etc...... As for social songs, we sang "the more we get together, together, together~ ~ (3 versions- BM, BI, BC) ", "burung kakak tua~ ~", "she will be coming around the mountain when she comes~ yippi yaya yippi yippy ya~ ~" etc..... Don't think it's easy, of cause sing is easy, but what if added some actions in? Actions that can considered real insane, childish, funny! WOW!! We danced, some cute dances and tradition dances. There's a dance which goes like this: "kiri kiri kiri, kanan kanan kanan, depan, belakang, lompat lompat lompat". SWEAT lot. We too played London Bridge game. They called it "terowong persahabatan". " WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE! ", we shouted, cause basically everyone was already high, yea. =D

We ended our first night with night duty. I did the first shift which started from 1.00a.m and ended at 2.00a.m.. Before that, we divided into 3 teams, each team consists of 4. My team take charged of the canteen. There were chairs and tables, we sat there until our duty ends. Good! Back to dome and sleep after that. =.= zzZZzXz Sweet Dream~~

Hoping MORE for the second day ;)

PBS Camp 2009 DAY 2

We had told to get all things done at 6.30a.m. brush up, everything. We did morning exercise with those cockerels. LOL. Morning jog, slow walk, warm up, a bit of dance......etc. We jogged together with Azizul, he commented on our team slogan : Mengacam tak apa, jangan terancam sudah. LoL. 'sweat' It took us almost an hour followed by our very first breakfast for the camp-- fried mee hun. Oh My Gosh!! I tell you, really really sympathy us. So little, so few. "Special" for kids. Oh man!! Really! So pathetic. We thought out a way, all of us eat quickly just for the second round. Aiyooo, pity us, like a prisoner just came out from jail, that hungry. We were given some time to prepare our sketch for malam kebudayaan. Coming up next :

First Aid Course :

• Fracture
• Transportation
• Wound
• Burn
• CPR

Obstacles Game :

• Tyre Step
• Abseiling
• Burma Bridge
• Kung Fu Dance
• Monkey Rack
• Balancing
• Commandant Crowl

Stations Game :

• "Kipcap Balloon"
• "Plastic Bag with Holes"
• "Sweets in Flour"
• "Ping Pong Ball with Spoon"
• "Ping Pong Ball in Water"
• Water Confidence
• Flying Fox
• Jungle Trekking

We played water, flours, water ballons, hide and seek, chased here and there like a mad dog...... Committee all were playing around, busy pouring and throwing flours to us, ran all over the place. Really siao! World War 3 was so happening. And plus that time it was raining, we just don't care, continued playing, just want to have FUN! besides fun, still FUN! And it was really really FUN!! Everyone was so happy, laughed, laughers everywhere, YEAH!! \(^.^)/ Is shower time!!! We rushed into the wash room knowing there's sure not enough bathrooms and WATER. We bathed with cold water of cause and it's direct from hill. SYOK SYOK! WOW~~ YEA ^^ Ever since we complaint about the food, finally we got more! Yea, FULL! wahaha x) Nervous hit straight to me next, worried about the sketch at night, later. Well, basically all performence involved dance. My team danced 5 dances thoroughout the sketch. Incredible huh? =) That night, there's a dance performed by committee. Chicken dance, that's for sure! Is a tradition. We sang, we danced and we played games, that night itself, we enjoyed very much. COOL!! The "wave" game and not forgetting, "walk all night". And because it was the last night, we were given permission to stay up until 1.45a.m.. "Gemuruh" was played all night long. Supper next. Had it with Azizul, small discussion over there. Back to tent at 1.30a.m., don't have to do night duty, can sleep peacefully (=.=*) The night was really really cold, thank to my sleeping bag. It made me felt warm and comfortable. I MISSED YOU!

PBS Camp 2009 DAY 3 [Last Day]

Committee pity us, let us sleep until 6+, gathered at 7. I woke up at 6.42a.m.. Don't worry, still on time, just have to brush up and change. Easy and fast. x) Morning exercise us usual, breakfast then. WOW! First Aid competition on the way. A group of 10. My first mission was right humerus fractured. Okay~ steady. Used up two bandages. Done, neat, good, satisficed. Second mission, a wound on right radius. Two bandages also. But Stephanie (not me, one of the committee, yea, same name, lol) said if want to short cut can just use one bandage and put the injured hand inside the shirt. Hmmm, I see, I learnt new things =D eh fx, why didn't you teach me this method? Easy and fast.

I volunteered for kawad bendera. 9 of us kawad-ing. Pity, practiced under the hot sun. Finally I got tenderness. What to do? Volunteering and I loved marching, can't help it ;) We were playing around saying all got second degree burn, blister coming out, processing to third degree xD Cause it was really really hot, sweat all over, moreover we wearing black tops and pants. Black colour absorbs heat!! CRAZY!! Will faint one k if can't stand. Don't play play!

My team won for the malam kebudayaan and we had to sketch all over again during closing ceremony, meaning dance again..... aiyo, so tiring =x paiseh larh. Closing ceremony starts. First of all, speeches from Tn Azizul Amar Rahmat (Camp Comm.), En M.Somasuntharam (Setiausaha Kahormat BSM, Chapter Klang), Pn Fatimah bt. Sulaiman (Pengerusi BSMM, Cawangan Selangor). Done with all speeches, is time for us to kawad bendera. We marched in and sang BSM song. Marched with one hand. CHUN~ yeng! We sang with all our hearts and we gave our fully respect to it. After all, time for prize giving and certs. "Gemuruh" played, we hugged each other saying good bye, take care, do keep in touch....... and of cause, ' autograph please, how about pics? ' yea...... photos, snap snap snap, here and there, the entire campsite, team pics, group pics............................................

This is where my 3days 2nights PBS camp ended~~~~~~~~~~ Go with 1001 questions, came back with 1001 experiences

OVERALL, THE CAMP WAS AWESOME!!!

DATE : 6-8 MARCH 2009

VENUE : Camp Tekali, Hulu Langat

FEE : RM50.00

7 PRINCIPLES : Kemanusiaan

: Kesaksamaaan

: Keberkecuali

: Kebebasan

: Khidmat Sukarela

: Ketunggalan

: Kesejagatan

THEME : Unity In Diversity

CAMP SONG : Gemuruh

CAMP COMM : En Azizul

VICE CAMP COMM 1 : En Shreenath. C

VICE CAMP COMM 2 : En Noel Silas

CAMP COMM SLOGAN : Is Easy To Get A Good Player, but Is Hard To Get A Good Team

TEAM SLOGAN : Purple Femur, Mengancam!

TEAM MEMBERS : Fazrul (Leader)

: Sheril (Vice)

: Dya (Secretary)

: Eddie (Eldest)

: Stephanie (Youngest)

: Maisur (Tallest)

: Adi (Best Drama King)

: Najihah (The Quiet Ones)

: Rubi (Missing Queen)

: Yana (Kind was her Middle name)

: Atiqah (Talented)

: Amirah (Dancing Queen)

Representatives of VAD Petaling :

* Stephanie

* Jun Hao

* Yin Chuan

* Rosli

sorry

sorry

I'M TRULY SORRY !!

speechless

speechless

NO WORDS CAN NOW DESCRIBE MY FEELING

>.<

freaking !

freaking

Hate the feeling where someone did wrongly and we can't do anything nor say anything but just can sit a side and kept our mouth shut! Just because his post is higher, higher status, more power?? What I want to stress here is, although you're one level above us, that doesn't mean whatever you do is correct, is perfect, is the best. As a manager of an office, you have to think wise rather than just giving orders, orders and orders. Action speaks louder than word. Stop putting up dramas! Give top priority to any important things. When both the things equally important clashed together, this is the time where you have to make a smart decision to sacrifice one. And please choose the one that will NOT sacrifice your workers/ working committee! Making decision is easy, but making a smart decision is hard. We know, we understand. But you have to as a manager. Stop bull shitting! As a manager, show a good example!

YOUR PROPOSAL HAS BEEN DECLINED !!!!

** I didn't mean to offence anyone. Just telling the truth here.

Something more

Received my salary today, 4 digits. Yea, right, I sure be feeling happy, but I didn't. In fact, not at all. Put it in this way, besides money, I had found something more valuable in this world. With money we can buy anything but not everything. Money can't buy happiness, peace, love, knowledge, freedom.......etc
Ever since I joined VAD, although it wasn't long, but I really learnt a lot form this detachment, this society. The cares that we gave, the time that we sacrificed, it was totally AWESOME !!! Some people just don't realise how wonderful it is. They will only thought : help people?! just for free?! for what?! why so stupid?! should make some money from it!.......... and stuff. YES! of cause, you can be selfish, but I want to ask, if one day you became a beggar, or maybe you're helpless, need help, no money, do you think people will help you?? Think harder. People will only treat you good if you too treat people good. A good Samaritan will helps you, cheer you up, even if you don't know them. His objective is to help people, that's it! For him, it's sufficient. That's the reason.

There's a lot people outside waiting for our help! Learn to help, learn to give love to the world!!!! IT WORTH MAXIMUM!!!!

REMEMBER: MONEY CAN'T BUY EVERYTHING!!

The Very First Time In My Life !

I CAN'T FEEL MY LEGS !!!!! NON-STOP SHAKING. IT WAS TOTALLY CRAZY! INSANE! ALMOST GONE CASE!

SPECIAL THANKS TO FX, JAS AND EDWIN.

KL Tower, 32 floors, 2058 steps, I Will Remember YOU !!

He wanted to carry me down , I scared I'll fall for him once again. If that happens, my previous hard work all gone, cannot!!! I won't let it heppens once again. So decided to continued by myself and i really did it. =D

What a day !

28 FEBRUARY 2009

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED !!

Really didn't expect anything much from my first aid knowledge. Thanks to your personal trainings! ;)